Woohoo, I got back to seattle yesterday.  I spent Wed-Sun back home in good’ol Walla x2.  And I couldn’t be more happy to be back in Seattle.  I finally noticed that I’ve reached the point where when I “go back home”, I feel like I’m actually away from home. 

My Mom’s house is like a foreign place now, I can’t find the light switches in the dark anymore and the bed I slept on for the majority of my childhood and then some seems small and unusual.  Does it make me strange or weird to not feel at home where I grew up?

But yeah, the point is, i’m back, Thanksgiving is over and I could barely button my work pants this morning.  Oops, I’m fat and I needs diet and exercise.  Awfully american of me don’t ya think? 

Anyway, I chose not to wear a belt today, seeing as there was no need.  My pants did a fine job keeping themselves up.  But the good part was, through out my day dreams today, I realized that it was a monday, and the first of a new month, which is the perfect time to set new goals.  So here they are. 

diet:

cut WAY back on the sugars, since thats like 85% of my diet that will be rough. 

Try to stop eating and stick the rest of my meal in the fridge so I can cut my portions in half. 

No beer for an entire month! 

This kind of goes with the no sugars thing but I am gonna try to drink way less soda, which may be the hardest one. 

And while I’m at it i was thinking of buying a bunch of vitamins for like at least a months worth and getting one of those little cases with the boxes for each day of the week. 

I don’t think I can cut back on meat.  If someone tries to take beef, pork or chicken away from me, there’s  gonna be problems.  But I was thinking of trying to eat MORE vegetables to compensate?

And next will be exercise.  But I’m tired so I’ll type that tomorrow!  Stay tuned for the next exciting episode!

Wow so I haven’t writen anything here in forevers… My car is on the fritz right now otherwise I’d be at school.  I’ve basically given up trying to get to South Seattle by 5 pm since thats right……. NOW! 

Guess I should see about signing up for another class so that I can make up… Hmmm… I should at least watch Heroes tonight since I’ll be at home.  But I should make sure my car will start also so I’ll know I’ll be going to work tomorrow…  I should take my car in to have it fixed Wednsday after I get payed…  golfbagpoop.

Yeah, so I’ve done away with my myspace.  I think I’ve had enough of it.  It really is a waste of time for somone like me who barely uses it. I’d check it alot, but wasn’t really that active on it so I figured what’s the point?  And I’m pretty sure everyone I knew on there can get in contact with me with out it.  Having no myspace, its the new myspace!  Thank you, and goodnight.

So I saw the Dark Knight last night and I was amazed.  The movie was about 2 and a half hours of action and suspence.  Its one of those long movies that you keep expecting to end, but you’re glad that it doesn’t.

Heath Ledger I have to admit did an outstanding job playing the Joker.  When I first heard he was playing him I had my doubts.  After I heard he died I was like oh, thats sad.  But now after seeing him steal the show as the Joker, I totally wish he was still alive!  Hmmm, I’m not a bad person am I?

The movie definitely went beyond Batman Begins which in my opinion is a tough act to follow, as that movie is up there as one of my favorites.  Dark Knight is just one of those awesome movies that never loses you’re attention, even someone as ADD as me.  It is just full of twists and turns that keep you interested for the entire 2+ hours.

All in all the movie was amazing, the action was great and there was even a bit of comic relief thanks to the Joker.  I recomend anyone to go see this movie, maybe not small children though, it is pretty violent.  On the other hand, screw it, teach’ em early.

That is it for now, maybe I’ll add more later, or maybe not.

So, my birthday came around again.  Its funny, I realized that I’m becoming one of those guys who doesn’t tell anyone that its their birthday but at the same time is secretly happy when people remember.  Hmmm… I suppose it just feels like another year has gone by and not a whole lot has changed.  Oh well, time for bed now…

Today is one of those lazy sundays.  The ones where you wake up and do little or nothing all day but waste time.  I guess they’re nice every now and then, but I still can’t help but feel guilty by the end of the day, and I know I will tonight.  It’s around 3:00 pm and I’m still wearing my pajamas.  I haven’t bothered to put in my contacts so far, so I’m sitting hear squinting at the screen.  I guess I have done a load of laundry and warmed up some left over food from last night.. ewww, sorta. 

I’ve always loved the saying on how we should live every day as if it were our last…  But on days like today I can’t help but feel like a hypocrite when I think of that saying.   If I were to die tonight, what kind of final day would I have to  talk about? 

Oh well, I guess that’s just me over-reacting like I do.  Chances are, I probably won’t die tonight.  And tomorrow morning I’ll have to go to work and bust my ass, so I’d probably better take advantage of being able to relax. 

w00t, I’m going home to visit the family this weekend.  I haven’t been home in about 4 months?  pwsome.

I need to see if I can download my old “driving home” song before I leave…

So I took a personality test, and it seems that I am a INTJ:

Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging
by Marina Margaret Heiss

Profile: INTJ
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 27 Feb 2005

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of “definiteness”, of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise — and INTJs can have several — they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don’t know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion “Does it work?” to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the “Systems Builders” of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be “slacking,” including superiors, will lose their respect — and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs “do” tends to be what they “know”. Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ’s Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete’, paralleling that of many Fs — only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to “work at” a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

Functional Analysis
by Joe Butt

Introverted iNtuition

INTJs are idea people. Anything is possible; everything is negotiable. Whatever the outer circumstances, INTJs are ever perceiving inner pattern-forms and using real-world materials to operationalize them. Others may see what is and wonder why; INTJs see what might be and say “Why not?!” Paradoxes, antinomies, and other contradictory phenomena aptly express these intuitors’ amusement at those whom they feel may be taking a particular view of reality too seriously. INTJs enjoy developing unique solutions to complex problems.

Extraverted Thinking

Thinking in this auxiliary role is a workhorse. Closure is the payoff for efforts expended. Evaluation begs diagnosis; product drives process. As they come to light, Thinking tends, protects, affirms and directs iNtuition’s offspring, fully equipping them for fulfilling and useful lives. A faithful pedagogue, Thinking argues not so much on its own behalf, but in defense of its charges. And through this process these impressionable ideas take on the likeness of their master.

Introverted Feeling

Feeling has a modest inner room, two doors down from the Most Imminent iNtuition. It doesn’t get out much, but lends its influence on behalf of causes which are Good and Worthy and Humane. We may catch a glimpse of it in the unspoken attitude of good will, or the gracious smile or nod. Some question the existence of Feeling in this type, yet its unseen balance to Thinking is a cardinal dimension in the full measure of the INTJ’s soul.

Extraverted Sensing

Sensing serves with a good will, or not at all. As other inferior functions, it has only a rudimentary awareness of context, amount or degree. Thus INTJs sweat the details or, at times, omit them. “I’ve made up my mind, don’t confuse me with the facts” could well have been said by an INTJ on a mission. Sensing’s extraverted attitude is evident in this type’s bent to savor sensations rather than to merely categorize them. Indiscretions of indulgence are likely an expression of the unconscious vengeance of the inferior.

Famous INTJs:

Dan Aykroyd (The Blues Brothers)
Susan B. Anthony
Arthur Ashe, tennis champion
Augustus Caesar (Gaius Julius Caesar Octavianus)
Jane Austen (Pride and Prejudice)
William J. Bennett, “drug czar”
William F. Buckley, Jr.
Raymond Burr (Perry Mason, Ironsides)
Chevy Chase (Cornelius Crane) (Fletch)
Phil Donahue
Michael Dukakis, governor of Mass., 1988 U.S. Dem. pres. candidate
Greg Gumbel, television sportscaster
Hannibal, Carthaginian military leader
Veronica Hamel (Hill Street Blues)
Angela Lansbury (Murder, She Wrote)
Orel Leonard Hershiser, IV
Peter Jennings
Charles Everett Koop
Ivan Lendl
C. S. Lewis (The Chronicles of Narnia)
Joan Lunden
Edwin Moses, U.S. olympian (hurdles)
Martina Navratilova
Charles Rangel, U. S. Representative, D-N.Y.
Pernell Roberts (Bonanza)
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Governor of California
Josephine Tey (Elizabeth Mackintosh), mystery writer (Brat Farrar)
Rudy Giuliani, former New York City mayor
Donald Rumsfeld, US Secretary of Defense
General Colin Powell, US Secretary of State
Lance Armstrong
Richard Gere (Pretty Woman)
Katie Couric

U.S. Presidents:

Chester A. Arthur

Calvin Coolidge

Thomas Jefferson

John F. Kennedy

James K. Polk

Woodrow Wilson

Fictional:

Cassius (Julius Caesar)
Mr. Darcy (Pride and Prejudice)
Gandalf the Grey (J. R. R. Tolkein’s Middle Earth books)
Hannibal Lecter (Silence of the Lambs)
Professor Moriarty, Sherlock Holmes’ nemesis
Ensign Ro (Star Trek–the Next Generation)
Rosencrantz and Guildenstern (Hamlet)
George Smiley, John le Carre’s master spy
Clarice Starling (Silence of the Lambs)

   Acknowledging fear is not a cause of depression or discouragement.  Because we possess such fear, we also are potentially entitled to experience fearlessness.  True fearlessness is not the reduction of fear; but going beyond fear.  – Shambhala: Sacred Path of the Warrior by Chogyam Trungpa

   I like this idea of fearlessness being only something as simple as acknowledging and dealing with our fears rather than being able to have NO fears.  I don’t think there is a person in existence who has no fears.  We all fear things in life, it would be unnatural for us not to.  Dealing with it in the right ways and keeping a cool head is how we can be truly fearless.

   I think my skills at over-analyzing actually come to good use here because when you sit and think things through, and realize how trivial they are.  You can really begin to see what good we can bring ourselves and other people if we can make ourselves overcome them.

   On a different note, the book that I read this from is one awesome piece of writing.  I’ve been studying it for the past 2 or 3 months although I haven’t yet finished it.  Its not really even that long, I just end up going back and reading things over again because they really jumped out at me that much.

   I’m also going to make an effort to write in this blog more, hopefully daily.  And I want to try and quit going to myspace so much.. heheh.

    Handshaking.   One of the most annoying things to me is when you first meet someone, and they try to do some kind of weird hand shake with you.  Like you’re supposed to just know it.  Ok, I guess I’m a pretty old fashioned guy, and when I shake someones hand, I use the plain, old fashioned, normal hand shake. 

    True, sometimes I can be a bit of a square and kind of clueless when it comes to whatever’s “hip” but honestly, the thing that I don’t like is every other joe-cool I meet at work or a friend of a friend or whoever, who wants to shake hands when they meet you, does some weird over the shoulder, behind the back, backflip-handstand holding they’re breath for 30 seconds handshake, I don’t even know…  

    And then when I of course don’t know what the heck they’re doing, they shake they’re head like I’m the only one who doesn’t know they’re secret hand shake, and they gotta give me the little tutorial; they gotta show me what I’m doing wrong like I’ll remember for next time.  Gee whiz, thanks. 

That is all.